Just letting it out
Posted 10-23-2008 at 11:35 PM by Jalili
........................I'm tired
Tired of working
Tired of TRYING
Tired of just all the damn BULLSHIT
If it isn't one thing IT'S ANOTHER
If you start getting excited about moving forward
Something always seems ready to push you back
I'm not worried about money, being seen, getting my book out there
NOTHING LIKE THAT.
It's the situation with my daughter and her mother....
I love my child, would die for my child, fought long and hard just to get to the point where I could give her something.
3 long hard years I've struggled to get this far (money wise) just to give her mother something.
I haven't been able to be there with my child at all and just looking at that you may get the wrong idea and think I WAS JUST LIVING IT UP.
But each birthday...I suffered
Each once in a blue moon phone call....I held back tears
Every time I tried to be friendly with her mother so I can truly get back into my child's life......I HAD TO ARGUE WITH HER FOR SOME PETTY REASON.
Whether it's the day after she gets money from me and she's asking for what I don't have to give.
Or (My daughters birthday was Monday 4 years old) I get pulled into some argument with her mother which would make it very trying if I made a trip up to see them.
Sometimes.....I want to just say FUCKIT
But then I would miss my child even more than I do now
I don't know what to do and no amount of advice would lead me in the right direction.....all I can do now is keep fighting.
But why do I have to fight with the mother of my child just to see MY CHILD?
..................I guess if it wasn't worth it it would be so much easier.
(Writing this while looking up Visitation Rights information)
Jalili
Tired of working
Tired of TRYING
Tired of just all the damn BULLSHIT
If it isn't one thing IT'S ANOTHER
If you start getting excited about moving forward
Something always seems ready to push you back
I'm not worried about money, being seen, getting my book out there
NOTHING LIKE THAT.
It's the situation with my daughter and her mother....
I love my child, would die for my child, fought long and hard just to get to the point where I could give her something.
3 long hard years I've struggled to get this far (money wise) just to give her mother something.
I haven't been able to be there with my child at all and just looking at that you may get the wrong idea and think I WAS JUST LIVING IT UP.
But each birthday...I suffered
Each once in a blue moon phone call....I held back tears
Every time I tried to be friendly with her mother so I can truly get back into my child's life......I HAD TO ARGUE WITH HER FOR SOME PETTY REASON.
Whether it's the day after she gets money from me and she's asking for what I don't have to give.
Or (My daughters birthday was Monday 4 years old) I get pulled into some argument with her mother which would make it very trying if I made a trip up to see them.
Sometimes.....I want to just say FUCKIT
But then I would miss my child even more than I do now
I don't know what to do and no amount of advice would lead me in the right direction.....all I can do now is keep fighting.
But why do I have to fight with the mother of my child just to see MY CHILD?
..................I guess if it wasn't worth it it would be so much easier.
(Writing this while looking up Visitation Rights information)
Jalili
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That some bullshit! I read that and I must admit Ja, it brought tears to my eyes. i don't know why some sisters just don't want to let brothers that's trying to do for their children, do for their children. As a mother, I couldn't imagine not being able to see my son. I'm not gonna pass any opinions about your child's mother because I don't know her, but I'am gonna say this, whatever the personal issues are between the two of you, shouldn't have any bearing on the relationship between you and your daughter. I think it is just sad that this little girl has a father out there that's missing her dearly, and the mother is standing in the way of them being together. THAT'S JUST FOUL AND CHILDISH! My son's father don't give a damn about anything concerning our son, I'm doing it alone and not by choice. I've made every effort known to wo-man to make it easy for him to see him, and nothing. The only time he has ever try to see him or do anything is when he gets a new woman, who happens to actually give a damn about his children. (I have his youngest child and his only boy). If I only had someone like you, who is putting forth an effort, that would be divine. I think the best thing for you to do is to try to get some legal help, you know, someone who can help support your interest in the matter. She can't just take the money and then talk shit. A little girl needs to be with her father! I hope I haven't over stepped my boundaries, I just feel for you Brotha. Keep fighting for your daughter!
Posted 10-25-2008 at 12:35 PM by tanya f. baby
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All i can do is keep fighting, she knows shes wrong but she has always been the person that thinks "Well if I'm wrong your wrong too"
She's a blame pusher but I can say she does love our child but to hold it all in for the peopel YOU love and not allow your child to love the people that love her is wrong.
I will be contacting a lawyer soon because this has just went too far and for too long.Posted 10-26-2008 at 02:44 PM by Jalili - I wish all the luck in the world with that situation my brotha. I'll will get better and it's gonna work out for you as well. It's just a shame that you are forced to take it to that level.
Posted 10-27-2008 at 03:01 PM by tanya f. baby - I wish all the luck in the world with that situation my brotha. It will get better and it's gonna work out for you as well. It's just a shame that you are forced to take it to that level.Posted 10-27-2008 at 03:02 PM by tanya f. baby
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