The hardest move I will make, will be the best move I make.

Brothas and Sistas...read up becuase this has been on the brain for a while.

I need to move. I stress this enough becuase I want to be somewhere else. I have been in the "upstate" of SC now for almost a year, and that year has been enough for me. I was in Raleigh NC, but I had to come back here to put my family back together. Some people said that was a dumb move, but I don't see that when it comes to family...especially mines.

It seems we can't get quite together to bring the whole clan (6 of us) to get to NC. I have been wrestling with this, and going against the grain as to sitting and waiting for Bush (again?) or a car (who needs it) or whatever. My oldest kids are going to their higher grades, my baby girl will be 4, and my first born son is finally here, so what's the problem...money.

I really have gone as far as to hold out on the rent, and make a break for it in June. i work for Walmart and the hastle their giving me trying to transfer is just stupid, but I won't play the fool. I'll take the steps, rather than subcumb to my own downfall, and just walk out. That's how I got to Walmart in the first place.

If you wanna know, those that know me here, get my frift on my thinking, I am always thinking.

I guess you say why you like Raleigh so much, but I did some checking as to why, and I didn't know, many of our fellow ancestors lived there, and it is one of few southern cities where blacks actually thrive. I love it their. Once I made it back to SC, I felt the muffle in the air. Stifling, and down right systematic. Note, I'm a native Charlestonian, and the "upstate" makes the "lowcountry" seem a whole lot better.

many of the old "southern" traditions are still prevalent here. I even overheard a customer refer to balck folk as "colored", damn now that's a step back.

To put it blunt, I just wanna get the hell out of here. If you ever felt that way, than you'll understand where I'm coming from.

Once I put together the family, and get those people from trying to get me to do things their way from around us, then we can motivate.

I done put the XBOX360 on the chopping block, even my toy collection is in play for making the move smooth.

Some have said wiat for the "economic stimulus", but to me that's a slap in the face to do that to yourself, we know damn well the govermnet is slow on everything, and if the family gets it, cool, but self-rpeservation is vital to your mental health. it's easy to be dependant, but independent means to be free of those who can opress, and possible opress all aspects of your life.

I have counted down 19 days to escapism. I will succeed in my plans.

I just ask for positive comments, or suggestions, but I'm still going forward.


Peace,
NKPE3297