........................I'm tired

Tired of working
Tired of TRYING
Tired of just all the damn BULLSHIT

If it isn't one thing IT'S ANOTHER
If you start getting excited about moving forward
Something always seems ready to push you back

I'm not worried about money, being seen, getting my book out there
NOTHING LIKE THAT.

It's the situation with my daughter and her mother....
I love my child, would die for my child, fought long and hard just to get to the point where I could give her something.

3 long hard years I've struggled to get this far (money wise) just to give her mother something.
I haven't been able to be there with...

I feel like that age-old saying of being a square peg being forced into a round hole. No matter what I do I keep slipping up and I am not learning the lessons I'm supposed to.

I live in a capitalist society and I have to work in that. I thought I had figured out how to play the games and not trip myself up but there's something I seem to be missing.

For one I need to listen to my first mind more and really remember to watch out for snakes. How could I let myself feel comfortable enough to let down my guard? Well, I guess that's on me though.

But I really thought that, at the very least, this Sister had my back. Maybe I just wanted it to be that way though.

Never again. Each obstacle...

How have unity, racial pride, and educational aspiration, once hallmarks of Black identity so dramatically declined? How did we African Americans become living contradictions of our former selves? Do we continue to accept the easy and convenient answer that these admirable cultural traits all merely disintegrated when integration and other subsequent opportunities became available? Furthermore how did the white race become the litmus test and standard for all humanity despite their brutally racist history to the contrary of where of which all other races has been either their enemies or their victims?
Do we continue to close our eyes or do we now open them now recognizing the truth about what is really happening.

Through...

15TH October 2008

I am writing this so that I can look back on my thoughts in the future see where my mind was at and see how it has progress..plus I wanted to share a page out of my life...
I dont feel the need to camouflage myself and hide.
I am open about who I AM, maybe not so open about who I WAS! But that's simple because I no longer want to indulge in the past, feel sorry for myself, I want to just learn from it and move forward!

WHOOOOAH Right now, I am so focused and sure about what I want it scares me!
My only problem is that I am not sure how to go about getting it...but I am working on it!
This year is/was a remarkable year for me both in a negative and POSITIVE LIGHT......

Uhuru, I want to thank the many of you who took the time to support Baba Mukasa Dada during his recent bout with cancer, I'm happy to share its been in remission for a while mow and he is in the best of spirits due in part to YOUR SUPPORT.

My little history with Baba Mukasa, I first met Mukasa in NJ around 1980 when he and Kwame Ture came to NJ on a speaking tour that we who were in work study (AAPRP) organized, this covered three cities in NJ Trenton, New Brunswick and Newark, these 2 organizers fired up the students and community so much, that we were able to create work study in two additional locations New Brunswick and Trenton for at the time the only work study that existed in NJ was Newark.

I lost contact...